Waking up to the soft autumn-esque breeze, the cool, comfortable air these last few days makes my body calm. It relaxes any tension and settles into the familiar. The humid, the sticky, the downright uncomfortable days of this year are numbered. I've gone inward, even more so these last couple weeks. I've become a shadow, lurking in the corner. Listening to the great mama universe. Honing in on Gaia.

I've been distracted and thrown onto a new course. And I am grateful for this shifting. I never expected it but it's truly welcome. I was doubting and unsure of what I was supposed to be focusing on. Where to channel my energy. There was a brief moment where I felt in my core that I needed to change the schooling plans we have had for Leena, the girls, for the last couple years. I seriously contemplated sending Leena to public school. But when I really sat with it, it just didn't sit well with me. With our family. And when I sat with it I got the answers I needed, the confirmations, the drive.

I've been worn down. And in that process Leena has been too. So when I cried out my woes to the universe this last weekend the answers I needed where always there, right in front of me, just waiting for me to really have the drive to take this homeschooling journey to the wind. And we have, together. I understand her again. How to help her grow and learn in a way that fits just right for her. And Leena is enjoying herself more lately than I've seen in a long time.

I am a bit unsure of who this woman is, flitting through the house, picking up, washing, doing laundry, putting items in their place. I don't know, but I'll keep her. I guess this change in my homeschooling approach has naturally changed my housekeeping approach and mindset. I actually enjoy it now. And what's even better, Leena does now too. She looked at me while I was putting Penelope down for a nap, after willingly putting her folded clothes away in the right drawers, and said, "Momma, I'm doing so great at keeping my room clean! I'm going to keep it clean all day!"

This may not seem huge, but for me, for her, for us, it's major.

Katelyn