After taking sometime to hold myself in the light, the negative voices telling me I wasn't good enough or wasn't worthy of the love I show others have left the building. I am worthy and good enough. I do know this. I did, I held myself, pretty damn hard. I squeezed and wouldn't let go until the thoughts had no choice but to submit to the love and learn to love the light. The negative was turned into the light and became a huge source of motivation for me.

Don't you hate that? When you are going along, living a life of purpose, then BAM! Darkness creeps in. I think I gave too much of my good mojo, witchy woo-woo, whatever you want to call it, away at one time and didn't keep enough to sustain me at the moment. And I am actually okay with that because I was holding some really amazing women as tight as I could. They needed it way more than I did at that time. But, I have learned when to take a bit of space for myself to recoup. Recover and re-energize. I have learned how to sustain myself so I do not burn myself out again.

I fully expect that I will have those moments of darkness, even after awareness happens, life still gives you the ups and downs. I do not expect life to be constant streams of light because sometimes you just have to sit in the scary dark because it has lessons, important lessons, to teach as well. What is that saying?

"I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night." -Galileo

Yes, beautiful stars. If there was never any darkness, we'd never have reason to appreciate the light. We'd never see the twinkling of stars and the glow of the moon. And through the darkness, we see the best in humanity, the best in ourselves.

And you'll see, lovely sisters and brothers, that when you start holding yourself and holding others, that the universe has love to show you. Love to pour out to you. I am learning to accept being held by others and by the universe. It always provides.
Thank you, sweet soul sisters, who have been holding me. Either through letters in the mail, gifts from the heart, emails, messages, and so on. I feel your embrace. I feel your love. And oh, OH am I ever so appreciative. Thank you. Thank you.

The pouring out of love has come in the form of feathers from lovely soul sisters helping me to build a smudge fan filled with love, filled with good energies and filled with loving intention.

It also came in the form of surprise gifts in the mail that were so filled with love. This was the kind of gift that made tears well up in my eyes out of the thoughtfulness of others. The kindness of women who you don't need to know in the physical world to be connected with, it's astounding.

I feel held.

Only love and light,

Katelyn

P.S. If you are called to send a feather along for my smudge fan, one found in nature not purchased from a store, I would love it and cherish it. You can send it along to Katelyn Demidow P.O. Box 1474 Sulphur, LA 70664