"Come to be now and lay your hands over me. Even if it's a lie say it will be alright and I shall believe." -Sheryl Crow

I am not going to lie. This last week has been filled with overwhelm. Filled with anxious energy and filled with just plain, I don't know, hardness. There's been many new revelations. But many opening into my depths that I am unsure of and afraid to acknowledge. This morning I woke up exhausted and irritable. Last night there was a huge blow out here that involved me crying in my closet. I am not sure if it is the energy leading up to today coupled with the move and Leena missing some people in our life but she has been expressing herself in uncontrollable fits of rage. I am trying to help her channel that anger into something that our family is unafraid of but more importantly into an outlet that SHE is not afraid of. She gets into this spiral of overwhelm and upset which turns into kicking, into screaming, into gagging and choking. It's very heartbreaking to watch. I wake up unable to just snap out of the funk I was in when I went to bed. I had been feeling a tad resentful and more so lost as a mother.

Right now though. Right now I choose to start this new age ready to accept and open to serve. I am opening my heart to the universe. I almost canceled our Yule gathering last night but Joey encouraged me not to and when I sat and reflected on it I got a message, loud and clear, that tonight was important. The gathering and ceremony needed to happen. I am consciously acknowledging my readiness to accept my purpose. Tonight. This year has been leading to this shift and I'm no longer scared of it.

I simply want to be. Be in the way that only one open to the vibrations can be. Living a life of purpose and honoring the spirit. This starts with today. The galactic alignment. Today with the start of embracing the Baba Yaga within with the start of the Apothecary Circle. Tonight with the ceremony of gathering around the fire, releasing and filling that empty space with positive, uplifting energy. Tomorrow with opening my house to the community.

I got to witness bees readying themselves for winter this morning. Buzzing around a magnolia tree by the hundreds. Gathering. Gathering. Gathering. The buzz and vibrations were intense and left the area around with a sense of peace. I felt it. Gaia is preparing the earth. And Gaia is preparing my soul.

Peace and Love.

Katelyn