The Brink
When life and death intertwines. It seems to always intertwine. Life and death, merging, working together. As when a soul enters into human existence it teeters, on the edge, on the brink. How delicate the birth processes are. How delicate the death processes are. To float in between, between the realms of human existence and spiritual existence. In a way, we are constantly finding this balance. Sometimes we need to swim in the waters of crossing over to really know how to come into the realm of physically being. Eyes not focusing, heart rate slowing. Gearing up to take the world, full speed ahead. And then, that exhale. That deep release into allowing the soul to settle into your human flesh. Foreign at first.
Being let into women's birthing spaces is something I don't take lightly. I leave all my anxieties outside. I enter and remove my shoes. Wash my hands. A physical representation of the cleansing I am mentally doing. Meditate and set a circle of protection around everyone involved and the space we are sharing for the day. Then, I slowly enter. I peel back a little bit of the protective circle and close myself within. I immerse. It could be the first time I am meeting you in the physical sense but once I enter that circle, you are forever a part of my life and I am forever a part of yours. I honest to goodness do not take that lightly.
As a baby emerges from the soft, comforting space of his or her mother's womb it really is a balancing act. And, well, I am processing it all. Being shown just how easily a soul can slip away and then reenter again, into their physical body, it's just something that will change you, no matter what. I am humbled to watch the teetering. To bear witness to the cycle. To be able to fully celebrate a little soul, really fighting for it's spot in this earth. And by god, do they fight.
None of this may make sense and maybe it's not supposed to. It doesn't make sense fully in my own mind. All I know is that yes, I am processing.
And today? Today changed me.
Welcome little fighter soul.
Love and light.
Katelyn